Thursday, May 19, 2011

No Appropriate Title

There are no real words to convey all that is going on inside this brain of mine these days.
I cannot give an appropriate title to this post because none of what we have witnessed in these past few weeks has been appropriate.
The trials of the past 4 weeks have been nothing but the results of us living in this sinful and fallen world that we live in.
We have seen the depravity of man display itself in the most tragic of deaths. We have seen "Mother Nature" unleash its tole resulting in unimaginable destruction.

As I sit and try to process the events of the past few weeks, I am sometimes speechless.
I sometimes have a lot to say, but don't have the guts to say it.
Other times I cry for the lives that have been touched and forever changed.
But mostly I think about how it all fits.
What is God trying to teach me?
Why has He in His infinite wisdom allowed this past month to be filled with so much turmoil? Why did He bring people into our lives for such a short time only to be heartbroken by their choices?
Why why and more why?

In the broad sense I know the answer. For HIS glory.
But in the general sense, I have to process through how it is gloryfying to Him for a 3 year old to be beaten to death and a grown man to take his own life?
I can look at little pieces and see His mercies, but seeing the bigger picture is where none of it makes sense.

I am a firm believer in God's sovereignty. I believe that He is in control over every circumstance. I believe that all things work together for those who are called according to His purpose.
I believe these things and count them to be true...
But I still have a lot to process.

1 comment:

care-in said...

It is definitely faith that keeps us believing in those things. Love you girl!