Thursday, October 18, 2007

How Bizarre!

Kim called today and asked me to be part of a craft bizarre. I was for warned since I had read her blog this morning about how she was in charge of getting people to do booths. Now I have that song going through my brain (how bizarre, doo doo dot do, how bizarre, how bizarre!)
Anyways, I've been sitting here contemplating the whole craft bizarre thing.

The Missy of 3 years ago would have jumped all over this.
The Missy of today is tired and can't keep up with her housework.

The Missy of old would have known exactly what to do and got to work immediately.
The Missy of today feels overwhelmed when she goes to the bathroom and sees that she has to change the roll of toilet paper.

The Missy of old would currently be at Michaels looking for the latest and greatest project to get started on.
The Missy of today looks around her house at all of the unfinished projects and wonders when she will ever get them done.

The Missy of old would not be blogging about these things because the Missy of old wouldn't know what to say.
The Missy of today knows better how to put down her thoughts and would rather work on herself, her marriage, her family, her relationship with God, than work on some other project.

Sometimes I miss the Missy of old. The more creative, hands on productive Missy.
But I like the Missy of today too. I like more and more what I am becoming. A grown woman, a better Mom, a better Wife, a better child of God. I think right now this is what God wants out of me.
The Missy that doesn't try to do it all.
The Missy that is learning to set better boundaries for herself.

I'm sure that the time will come when the old Missy and the Missy of today will be able to work together again. My creativity still comes out now, its just in different ways.

I have to learn to embrace those ways and fit them into my life as it is now, not the way it used to be. I have to learn to let God teach me about balance and priorities. About productivity that is actually productive, and not just time filled to look productive.

So I guess while I am learning these things, I'll have to just wait for the Old Missy too catch up with the Missy of today. I can't wait to see what that looks like!


Stace' said...

If you lived close to me this would be cake!!!

Anonymous said...

I'm glad I'm not the only one overwhelmed by an empty roll of toilet paper!

Marsha said...

I love your transparency and honesty. Sounds like a season of life is budding. I'm praying for you and love you.

Graced said...

Great post about the changes we face as we mature! I totally relate!

Laura Leigh said...

Lovely, lovely post.

Laura Leigh said...

Lovely, lovely post.