Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Just Not the Same

(Laura and I reveling in our Thanksgiving success 2005.)

Sunday in church our pastor was giving a Thanksgiving message and I told Stacy that I got overwhelmingly sad thinking about Thursday. Its not that I don't have alot to be thankful for. Believe me, God has done incredible things in my life this year. It's just sad for me without my Sister here. Thanksgiving is our day. We cook, we laugh, we drink Starbucks Mocha Frappacinos, we yell at our kids, then say how thankful we are for them. We laugh at our husbands for playing too much x-box, we watch Marmi, The Pap, Granddada, and Nana, enjoy the grandkids, we talk about getting up really early the next morning for big shopping, but really, we never do. We're always too tired from all the Thanksgiving day prep.
Thanksgiving has always been a day that I REALLY look forward to spending with my sister. We are like minded, so there are never too many "Hens in the kitchen." We understand each other, we laugh at each other (Laura is one of my biggest fans and for that I am appreciative of!), we have known each other for a really long time, which of course always makes things easier. We can appreciate each others desire to cater a bit to our husbands weird eating issues. We love each others kids as much as our own as you can get. We triumph in the finished product at the Thanksgiving table. We enjoy every second of the togetherness that we can.

So this year, while I am thankful that God has been so gracious to me, I am also a little sad. Sad that I'm going to Cracker Barrel and not Atlanta. Sad that I have a new little niece that I can't hold this Thanksgiving day.
BUT...I am thankful. Very thankful that I have a sister that chose to follow the Lord to the ends of the earth. That is sharing the gospel with those around here. That has been blessed with a husband with the same heart, and blessed with 3 beautiful little girls. I am thankful for the time I got to spend with her earlier this year. Thankful for that gift. Thankful for pictures and memories. Thankful for the phone and internet to be able to keep in touch today.

I'm thankful for God's goodness this year. He has blessed me exceedingly and abundantly this year in many ways. So even though I am a little sad, He is still good. He is still gracious. He is still loving. He is after all, still God!


Marsha said...

You are so cruel! I've been feeling so good, settled in, anxious to start new traditions, adjusted to "what it is" and just thankful everyone's well, then YOU have to write this and Dad has to tell me he had a break down going to work this morning and almost had to pull off the road!

Abbey said...

I think this is wonderful, girl. I loved reading about your sadness. It's real and I can relate. I am sad too. I miss my mom terribly and it gets epsecially hard on every holidays. And yesterday my grandpa was put in the hospital again, so that too makes me sad. And my family (all single men but me) will be spending Thanksgining in a restauraunt while I go to Matt's parents to spend the day with them talking in a million differnet ways about how wonderful Matt is. Oops. Did I say that? Well I must have, becasue I see it up there. Oh well. It's the truth. But I love how you ended your post with how good God is and that your sadness doesn't change that. A good reminder for me!! Happy Thanksgiving!