Somedays, well are just plain hard.
Today was a traumatic day for my daughter and I.
It appears that PMS starts in girls very early, and from the time she woke up, Lana was an emotional mess.
If you know my child, you know that she is normally a happy, sweet child.
Today however she cried on several different occasions at the drop of a hat.
And I don't mean just a little tear. I mean big time sobs.
The last big cry, was a warranted cry however.
As you all know, she has recently had a room makeover. Which of course included a new bedspread.
She has also been told not to draw, color, etc...while sitting on the bed.
Well apparently yesterday she decided to use some markers, while sitting on her bedspread.
They soaked through. She tried to hide it...
I saw it. I simply looked at her and she broke out into trembling sobs.
All I could say was "Sit on your bed".
Long story short, I sprayed the thing like crazy, soaked it, and then sat at the computer for 20 minutes playing a game so I could gain some composure.
Poor Logan came down and said "Mom, I think Lana is having a baby or something...she's screaming like crazy."
I then "dealt" with her, and then made her take a 2 hour nap so she could regain some emotional stability. After that, she has been back to her happy normal joyful self.
Her Daddy even took her out to Starbucks tonight. ( already a planned deal...in no way a reward for deceitful and crazy behaviour).
Somedays I would just prefer not to be a Mom. It would be so much easier to not deal with disciplining. This is not the first time that Lana and I have had bedspread issues. When she was 3 and got her new bedspread for her first big girl bed, she painted her nails on it...nail polish comes out of nothing!
I am sure that there is a lesson for me in all of this. I am sure that God is not concerned with Lana's bedspread, but rather how I deal with her in her disobedience.
It is very hard to discipline a little girl that is doing the whole "I-I-I-a-a-am so o ory that i i i d i id that."
I realize more and more how important it is to deal with the heart issues with my kids. The issue was not that she got marker on her bedspread...the issue was that she willfully disobeyed and then set out to deceive. That is the issue of the heart that we have to deal with.
This is where I have to point her to the Gospel and say...
"Our hearts are deceitful and wicked, BUT GOD before he layed the foundations of the earth, new that, and provided a Saviour so that we don't have to live in the trap of deceitful and wicked behaviour. God has given us a way out through His Son Jesus."
This is were she has an opportunity to respond. Recognize her sin, confess it, and accept God's grace, or not recognize it and repeat the same behaviors.
Somedays I hate being a Mom, but when at the end of that day I realize that God has given me the opportunity to show my kids the Gospel, I can do nothing but raise my head in awe, and look forward to the opportunities of tomorrow.
Oh, and in case you are wondering, I did get almost all of the marker out.