First of all, I can't believe I haven't blogged since Wednesday. WOW! Thats crazy for me.
Now...it is the end of an Era. I don't know exactly how many years make up an Era. It seems like they covered this on an episode of "Friends". But anyways.
I have worked for 4 years and as of last Thursday at 6 O clockish, I am officially now a non working woman. It's kind of happy and sad for me. It's not like I had this big huge career or anything. I mean it was a one day out of the house job, and a few hours in the house doing some typing. It was just the fact that I was contributing to the household financially and I made some money and felt a little more at ease with doing extra things. It also was a day out of the house...by myself, and having occasional adult conversation. I am going to miss my alone time. And I'm going to miss some of the people I've gotten to know over these few years.
ONWARD! I am excited to move on and start a newish chapter of my life. Being a homeschooling Mom is a full time job in and of itself (not that being a non homeschooling mom isn't too...but you know what I mean!). The only problem is that now I have only myself to blame if I don't get my act together. Before I could blame it on the job...now it's ALL me. Kind of scary I must say. Can I do this? Do I have the patience? Do I have the discipline? Do I have the stamina?
Could you imagine doing this without the Holy Spirit? I mean seriously folks, I have thought of this often. I fight my flesh so much already, if I did not have the Holy Spirit tempering me even just a little bit, I would not last one day as a wife or a mom.
Starting off this year of homeschooling is going to require a lot of soul searching and dependance on Christ. I can't do it, but Christ through me can. I have to cling to that or I will not make it.
So tomorrow we will embark on a new schedule. Hopefully one that is more disciplined and productive. No more excuses. I'm stearing this ship, and it's going to either sink or float.