Monday, August 4, 2008

What I wanted to do

Today is my sisters 31st birthday.

What I wanted to do was put together a musical montage of pictures with catchy quotes.

But since I lack the emotional fortitude to put on such a display at this time, I will try to briefly put into words what she means to me.

It is probably impossible to do even that, because if I start I will bawl my eyes out, and then feel sorry for myself for how much I miss her right now. Then she will read this, and she will bawl her eyes out, and then her husband might take away her Internet privileges because he can't stand to see her cry, and then she won't feed her children for days because she has spiraled into a deep sadness because she misses me too.

So really you see, I must protect her and her husband and children by not making a gushy musical montage with catchy quotes filled with emotional fortitude.

If you have a sister, I'm sure you can understand how I feel when our birthdays come and go and we are not able to sit and chat about the past year over a cup of Chic-fil-a tea or a Mocha Frappacino.

If you don't have a sister, I'm sure you understand the loneliness when one of your greatest friends and people that knows you the best is gone for a long period of time and you can't sit on a swing and giggle like little girls.
Really that's all I can say right now...I am way to emotionally unstable and on the point of a breakdown if I go any further.
Happy Birthday La, I love you and miss you very much!!!


Marsha said...

Hope Chest Legacy will be up later in the morning. I too am an emotional basket case today trying to do this and finding it hard. I'm afraid my keyboard is going to explode or something from the tears running down my face.

Laura Leigh said...

Wow! Lana looks just like your sister!

Missed Lana yesterday. Hope you had fun with your friends.

Anonymous said...

beautiful, missy. how fortunate for you to have each other.

valerie said...

I love the picture. I know that you miss her alot, my sister and I are close too. Lana does look like your sister!

Marsha said...

Okay Missy. I finally got composed enough to get Hope Chest Legacy up for La.

Jeanny said...

You look way to young to have a 31 year old sister ;)

Michele W. said...

Oh, Missy... I understand! Marsha and I have been far apart in distance for 32 years... but we are close in heart... I know you miss her today and every day!

Jeanny's little note reminds me of when your mom and I are together... everyone thinks I am the older sister! Ever since we were teens... and she is almost 5 years older than me too! I liked it when we were younger...but now...

Love you Missy!

Aunt Michele

michelle said...

I'm sorry you're having a sad day. I wish I could fly you to Africa right now to see her :(